Becoming Bella by Sarah Hegger

Author:Sarah Hegger [Hegger, Sarah]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Kensington
Published: 2017-08-02T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter Nineteen

Bella woke alone the next morning, and she was good with it.

Nate had left sometime in the very early hours. Tucking the covers under her chin, he’d given her a sweet kiss as he left.

She lay in bed and giggled at the memory of his failed tattoo. Somewhere between the bouts of the most incredible sex, ever, they’d found time to chat. She’d asked him about the large tattoo covering his ribs and learned it covered up an older mistake. Under duress, he’d told her about his credo gone wrong.

Live hard, die young, and leave a good-lurking corpse.

She’d laughed so hard he’d had to shut her up in the most effective manner he knew.

Bella stretched, her body twinging in all sorts of places. What a night! She put off getting out of bed for as long as possible. Her sheets still smelled like Nate, but she stripped them anyway. Only indulging in one last breath of him before shoving them into the washing machine.

Nate had come over and they’d had mind-blowing sex, more than once. And now he’d gone. Life would go back to normal.

She amazed herself at how okay she felt about that. If she’d known she’d be this okay, she’d have jumped his bones years ago. Shower turned on, she brushed her teeth as she waited for the water to heat. Here she’d been building this up into some great tragedy. Nate would break her heart, blah blah blah.

She stepped into the shower and, tilting her head, let the warm water run all over her.

Finally, she’d had the sort of sex Liz went on about. The sort that rocked your world and left you craving more. Except there wouldn’t be more. She and Nate had been friends for years and they would go right back to that.

And she was . . . fine with that?

Oh God! She wasn’t fine with that. Not at all. Not even a tiny bit. The wave of sadness grew from her toes and hit every major organ on the way up.

Nate had moved the earth for her and then taken that away. Every fiber of her rejected the notion. Her tears mingled with the water.

She’d made a horrible miscalculation. Dreaming and knowing weren’t the same thing. In the past, Nate had been some kind of phantom desire, always floating outside her grasp. Last night that phantom had become flesh and joined with her flesh, grafting itself onto her, sinking into her with sharp, hooked claws. Her gut had warned her all along how it would go. Too late to listen to it now because she’d just eviscerated herself.

“Stop it.” She hauled out her Nana voice for the occasion. “You slept with him, it was great, now it’s done. Get over it.”

Pressing her hands into them, she willed her eyes to stop leaking. Worse things happened in the world than getting your heart broken. People got their hearts broken every day and they survived. She would too.

Nate had made her no promises; quite the opposite, in fact.

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